Slow Down Mummy

I’m having issues with my milk supply since Monday. Super low output. And the baby decided that this week, she wants to drink more milk! So I’m almost running low on stash. Ugh!

I feel so stressed out. People at home are not helping at all. With all the “kaya mo pa ba i-supply ang gatas ng bata?” questions and “3 bote na lang nasa ref” statements. Ugh! Now I think me being so stressed is one major reason why the output is low. Although I’m keeping it firm that I will continue breastfeeding. I am doing everything to ensure that ze bebe has enough milk at home. Even if it means waking up in the middle of the night to pump and early morning to pump once again. I am also drinking Natalac capsules. Will get myself a huge bag of oats and Fenugreek this weekend. I will do everything to increase the supply even if it means I have to munch on malunggay leaves 24/7.

But I really think I need to rule out STRESS. I’ve been running like a headless chicken ever since I got back to work. With the baby getting ear infection on my first week back and the family deciding that we need to have her baptized soon. And prepping the milk, doing inventories. Cleaning the pump. I need to wake up earlier than usual to prepare everything before leaving the house and that includes my pumping kit and my working kit plus I need to prepare ze bebe. I need to give her a bath before I leave, ensuring that we have enough thawed and freshly expressed milk on the refrigerator to last her the whole day. Making sure that her diaper caddy is full and that the cotton jar is full and the diaper rash cream is present else they’d forget it.

Being such a hands on Mom is so difficult. Especially if you happen to be a working mom as well. Sometimes, I do ask myself this…

Am I Mom enough?  Am i doing everything? Can I actually do everything? My life now revolves around the baby and her needs and yet I don’t think I’m doing enough. Plus my work is stressing me. I don’t function well. My brain is not cooperating. I am not like this at work. I always give it my best. And yet, I think I am again giving just half of what it needs.

Feeling ko lahat ng ginagawa ko half full. And then I saw this poem on one of my favorite blogger’s site:

Slow down, mummy, there is no need to rush,
Slow down, mummy, what is all the fuss?
Slow down, mummy, make yourself a cup of tea.
Slow down, mummy, come and spend some time with me.

Slow down, mummy, let's put our boots on and go out for a walk,
Let's kick at piles of leaves, and smile and laugh and talk.
Slow down, mummy, you look ever so tired,
Come sit and snuggle under the duvet and rest with me a while.
Slow down, mummy, those dirty dishes can wait,
Slow down, mummy, let's have some fun, let's bake a cake!
Slow down, mummy I know you work a lot,
But sometimes, mummy, it's nice when you just stop.
Sit with us a minute,
And listen to our day,
Spend a cherished moment,
Because our childhood is not here to stay.

So yeah, I am taking it slow this weekend. Nevermind the DIY candles I started doing last Sunday. I’ll just have the sister and the companion help me with them. I don’t care if they are not pulido anymore. Nevermind the unfinished task at work. I’ll do them on Monday hoping that I’ll have a clearer mind. Nevermind the low milk output. I’ll just take those extra pumping hours and think of them as my blogging break. Hell yeah! I can blog while pumping at home. Hmmm… Nevermind the lost sleep. I have long accepted the fact that sleep these days are luxury we don’t often get. So now, I’m logging off. Bye bye for now. I’ll savor these precious moments with my daughter. Nevermind the issues. I’ll face them one by one. :)

xoxo,

Reigne

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