Yeah! Sure! I love my life now. With a seven month old cute baby who keeps my life happy and bright and sunshiny with just her toothless grin – who could ask for more right?
But I miss my old life. I miss hanging out with friends on a Friday night – dinner, movie or videoke. I miss receiving tweets or messages from friends on a weekend asking for an impromptu food trip, and actually say YES! I miss watching comedy skits with the sashals followed by a quick visit to the cafe. I miss buying clothes! How how I miss buying clothes and shoes and bags without feeling guilty if I splurge too much on a pair of high heels. And yes! I so miss my high heels! I miss walking in a 5 inch stiletto just because I could and because it’s damn perfect for the pair of jeans I’m wearing. I miss being able to squeeze myself on a tight bodycon dress and actually look good and feel good about myself. I miss the beach. I miss travelling. I miss the random staycations. I miss my bi-monthly foot spa and body massage. I miss my old body. I miss watching movies, well actually, I miss watching movies on a movie house on its first day of screening.
These days, I feel like I’m leaving under the rock.
It’s a Friday and my officemates are all out either having dinner or having dinner and booze. While I am here typing away. While I’m here thinking of the fastest way to get home because I am sure my little darling is waiting for me.
A friend was inviting me for a food trip in Kapitolyo. I declined of course because I have milk stash to bring home and is afraid to get spoiled. Plus, I am not sure if my stash at home would be enough for the baby until 12MN. Oh heck! I can’t even stay until midnight. Because I am so sure that I’d go home to a wailing baby looking for her Nanay.
But I am happy! I really am. No words could ever describe how happy I am right now. I think it’s the kind of happiness that only fellow mum could understand. The kind happiness that you feel deep within.
It’s just that… You know! I’m a human being who wants to go out sometimes. Hay! So yeah! It’s just me doing my random musing. And yeah! I need to cut it short because I have to go home now. :)
Have a happy weekend my loves!
Musings
After I got married, I miss my single life. I can't get enough sleep during work days because I have to wait for my husband. I miss my "ME" time.
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate. There are moments when I reminisce those happy things in the past. Don't get me wrong. I love my kids, and I would not exchange them for whatever life I had before. But even moms also need a "ME" time.
ReplyDeleteI don't really miss my single life. Ang namimiss ko yung date with my husband since we don't have yaya so my son is always in tow. :)
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, you're not alone. I get those moments too, especially now that I'm a work-at-home mom who doesn't get out much. We don't have househelp too so we can't leave the kids with anyone. Hubby and I haven't been out on a date in over a year. But I know this too shall pass. Having two kids who are now almost teenagers, I've seen how fast time flies. So, I'm taking this as an opportunity to really spend a lot of time with my 3-year-old, who's always with me and hubby when we go out. I deal with those moments by chatting with friends on Facebook. Attending blogger events and other workshops on weekends also helps me reconnect with my old self. :)
ReplyDeleteOh I get you! I love my kids to bit, but I miss a lot of things about my old life too. It doesn't mean we love them less. Though many people don't know any better and would do or say something to make us feel like we're being selfish, no?
ReplyDeleteMotherhood and marriage most of the time means giving up a lot of the things you loved and cherish...because you're no longer about you. I get you..I love my kids to bits but I miss my old life sometimes. It doesn't mean we love our children less.
ReplyDeleteI also felt that way before when my daughter was still baby now. Now, I can sneak in more ME time since she's already 6 years old. Wait ka lang mommy.. pag medyo lumaki na si baby, I'm sure you can squeeze in some ME time too.
ReplyDeleteIt was during my 2nd born that I felt the need to go out and socialize..it took a while before I finally got my "me" time :)
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